Sunday, April 20, 2008

I Am SAHM

It seemed like a good idea to use these colors when I was working on this layout. But now that I take a closer look at it, it just seems so violet-y or more precisely, red-violetey. I can't even blame this on the vertigo because I actually finished this before its onset.

To everyone who texted me, e-mailed me their concerns, left notes in the comments section of my vertigo post, I am feeling much better now. Not yet 100% balanced (my DH would day I never was) but definitely better. Thank you for your concerns and I'm sure you'd understand if I don't take any of your medical suggestions if you don't have an M.D. afer your family name.

Anyway, here is the layout I was talking about. It's a layout acknowledging this phase in my life, a phase I never thought I'd find myself in. I never even knew there was such an acronym as SAHM. I knew DINKS (double income no kids) but I wasn't that for long. Now, I am SAHM.


Journaling:
I have worked all my life. Even when the children came, I continued to hold a job. I was afraid I would lose who I was, all that I studied and worked for, if I stopped working. I successfully balanced a career and a family. I was happy.

About two years ago, the foundation I worked for closed down. I was at a loss. My job defined such an integral part of me. I rushed to find another job. It was difficult to find a job that was comparable to my last one. I was getting desperate. I felt that everyday I wasn’t working I was losing a part of me.

Then my husband told me to enjoy my “forced” vacation. To consider myself lucky to be out of the rat race. The kids were growing up, he said. Way too fast. He told me to enjoy these precious moments with them because soon they will be living their own lives. And I was calmed and I felt blessed.

So now I stay at home and take care of my little family. My friends and colleagues cannot believe I traded a career for motherhood. All they see are the wasted opportunities. But I am happy. I may have lost a job but I found my joy. I am SAHM. SAHM I am. (April 1, 2008)

Materials:
CS- DCWV; PPS - Prima; Diecuts - Craft Express; Stamps (crown, nightingale, flower) - Inque Boutique; Ink - Clearsnap, Tsukineko; Watercolor - Twinkling H20s; Adhesive - Saunders; Fiber - Making Memories; Font - Times New Roman.

1 comment:

Christine said...

hay naku. i am waiting for the day my DH would tell me I could be a SAHM! :)

love that sweet LO of yours!